blurrrrr

i have to face it...
here...where im standing??
can i stand by my own??
hmmmm..
im afraid..
im sori sis..
org xreti dlm hal2 nie..
jg ati org..hmmmm...
nth la..
org akn myesal bila org uw da pegi..
tp tyme uw smuanyer da brakhir..
sbb uw stiap hbgn mst ending camni..
org xtau nk ckp pe ag..
org da ilang akak..
org mmg xreti jg kn...
org aw..
hmmmm..
berikn kn ak ptunjuk mu..
spya ak dpt mnilai ssuatu dgn btl...
im speachless..
my test??
is worst!!
my asgmnt??
errrrr~
my life??
miserable...

aku & penyakit

hye...
perlu ke ak g medical check up again??
nth la..
mmber ak pakse g wt follow up dgn doc len..
tkt hal nie jd ag terok..
sbb mmber dy pn same kes dgn ak..
headache...doc ckp xd pape,juz xcukp rhat la..pe la..
upenyer bila g cek kt tmpt len,dy sbnrnyer ad migrain!
huh! xke bhya uw..
lately ak ase cpt letih...
lau tito uw,mst xtjaga..
bdn ak pn cam sengal2 je...
tp yg paling ak xtahan bila akit pale...
mmg xpat wt keje len..
n psl mkn..kna itot tyme..lau lmbt ckt je..mst perot msok angin..
pedih jew...skrg pn da xleh mkn pedas2...
tension!!!!
myb ak byk agt pk kowt...
ak xnk wt diorg riso..nk2 parent ak...
xnk r mnambahkn beban...
hope akit nie cepat baik...sbb xlarat nk tahan akit..
nk stdy pn ssh...xdpt focus...
aku ni cam problematic gurl kn..
de je probs nyer....
xabis2 dgn masalah...
mslh yg ak cari sendiri!!
hahahaahahahah...
sampai bila ak leh idup dgn tenang??
tgn yg bterusan mgigil..
pale yg sntiase akit..
pwot yg slalu wt hal..(gastrik)
jantung yg bdegup pantas..
aha!
ak pn xtau sampai bila...
myb ni dugaan utk ak..
tp ak btl2 nk kn jwpn kpd sume nie..
ak nk agt tau punca akit ak..
sbb ak ase cam de somthing wrong je..
sume ubat da telan..but remind d same...
hurmmmmm...

aku....

..............silent...............

juz keep silent...

coz people around me r stat 2 hate me...

...........in silent..............

my fault???

yup2..

tepat sekali...

dulu dy..skrg kamu...nex who??

wut im gonna do??

keep silent again??

no...not 4 this tyme...

i want u'll..

plz..let me fix myself...

ak tau mse xbyk ag..

ak btl2 jd xbtl..

dgn ksihtn xtjaga..

ak nk diorg chat..

bia r ak akit sorg...

sbb tu kdg2 ak nk duk bilik sorg..

xmo diorg aw ak akit..

tp tu r..bnda da jd...ak pn cam diam kn je..

nk aw...aku tkt wt kptsn..sbb ak mmg xpandai wt kptsn..

ak jenis yg byk pk..bila somtng happen ak akn pk dr a-z..

wlpn bnd uw xjd ag..

ak cpt emo,snsitf..

nape ak trus diam kan sume nie..

leh tunaikn pmintaan sy??

sy nk tgk org yg sy syg...

senyum...hepi....n bhgia...

along...angah....alang....

4 d first tyme in my life i got 3 sis...

sy kenalkn korg kt famili sy..

first tyme!!

org ciap ckp kt famili yg sy btl2 syg korg..

n i noe my mum noe n undstnd it...

tp sy hampir2....akan....

ditinggalkn.....

tlg sy...

sy xnk sume nie blaku..

aku ase....

org selalu pk pe diorg pk btl...kdg2 lngsg xpk or ase pe org uw alami...kdg2 ak bengang agk..ak da cuba buat yg tbaik utk jaga ati sume org...tp tu r..im just human being yg lemah lagi hina ini..xmampu nk wat sume pihak hepi...dari dulu ag..ak saba..saba n saba...juz diam,dgr n follow..ak bkn PATUNG yg xd perasaan..ak diam,sbb ak hormat..ak dgr sbb nk dgr pnjelasn..lau ak ckp gk bila org tgh ckp,sape yg dgr t..setan r...ak follow sbb ak nk diorg hepi dgn kputusn yg dbuat..ak bkn marah..ak cuma tkilan...stiap kali..stiap phubgn..mst ending camnie..kali ini ak nak agt diorg2 uw tau yg ak syg agt kt diorg..wey,sape je yg xhepi bila ase dhargai,dsygi..org yg ttiba muncul,care bout u..tp bila org yg kita mmg sayang mula bri phatian kt ko,xkn ko nk biakn je dy cam2..sbb ak pnh ase dbiakn..hurmmmmm...ntah la...ak mls nk kapel..pnt je nk feeling2 nieh!sbb uw ak prefer syg org cam pngkt akk..sbb ak dgn akk ak xrapat agt..lg2 dy da kawin..ag la..ak tau kdg2 ak blaku xadil... tp bila ak dgn dy,dlm mase yg same dpt tau yg lain tluka..ingt ak akn hepi..bhgia agt la cam2...msg2 pk diorg btl..im just d one yg dgr..make my own conclusion..n keep silent...who am i to change their mindset...i would like to say..once i say i love u,4eve im love u..no matter u leave me,or keep silent..i will always remind u..n never throw u away from my life..bila org yg kita syg,benci agt2 kt kita pe kita ase???ak ttba blank!!didi she pretend again??i dont noe...all my way,ak ase ak nk nngis puas2..tp airmata xkua..tp ati ak bleeding...ak cuba utk senyum..make them hepi..tp sumenyer da brubah..sbb dlm ati diorg ad ase yg kureng senang thdp ak..ak an jahat,tamak,pmbohong...ckp je r korang salah kn ak dlm hal nie..bia la ak tanggung...pandai wt,pandai tanggung r kn..bgs ayat uw..xpe la..bia ku pendam je..