hye..im still standing here..
lately my life is full of problem..
problem that is called 'test of life'..
hmmmm...
after one problem come and been solve,another take part to been tested..
i feel so down and my mood is not too good..i feel so moody n hard to smile..like always..
all this problem is really tested me..
test my heart to be more stronger than yesterday..
i noe i can face it..coz i now i have people that really care of me..
n always be beside me to support n face it wif me..
first..
person that i loved wanna let me go..yea,i noe..
im made a problem and i must to accept all possibility..
its all my mistakes..but finally..its ending wif good result..
that 4 all my sis..
second..
i been test by noe that im hurting person that i love every second in their life..i feel so lost n
blurr..i dont noe what to do..i love them damn much..
i cant choose one of them..
yea..im STUPID!!
i make it happen..sorry 4 all my mistake..
sorry 4 every tear that fall..
sorry 4 every heartbeat that been crash by me..
sorry from bottom of my heart..
third..
i wanna be someone in here..
not no body..but i lose it again n again..i wanna get busy with my life..but...
hurmmm..feel empty inside..
fouth..
what u feel when u noe that d person that always be there 4 u..hate u in silence..
person that always shared tear n laugh..that u trust 2 tell secret..
hurmmm..
my mind stop thinking..i dont noe what going on..i feel my heart bleeding again..
my heart cry again..i feel so empty..
why me???i noe u feel angry that tyme..but y??
i noe my fault..but at least im fulfill ur need rite..but that not my point..i really love them,friend..when im start something,i will finish it..
after all this problem appear in my life..
i learn something..
that make me gain something..
first..
i learn to appreciate people that always be there 4 me..learn not too judge people without noe them first..
second..
we cannot make everyone hepi..but at least do something that can make them smile..although u make them hurt,dont gain it more n more..
third..
learn to face d truth..learn to accept that u will not get all that u want...sometyme Allah wanna test u first,next He will give u somthng that much2 better n suit 4 u..u juz can plan n Allah will make it truth..
n cry will make u feel better..tear that come out will make ur heart more refresh n light..all ur problem will sweap away n u will fine..cry not represent ur weakness..but ur heart that ready to change..
fouth..
we cannot make people love u...n hate u..all we can do is be kind to everyone..we'r not God that can care all heart in this world..we juz human being that full of mistake..we cannot be like u want..everyone is differ from other..take that diff to make they feel special..
can i ask something?
who r u to make a judgement without noe d truth??
who r u to hate people when u let d mistake happen infront ur eyes 4 a long period??
u seem like noe all thing rite??
but u juz noe little of d story..but no matter what..
thx friend..im change step by step..now im not take a problem is enemy 4 me..
sometimes it can be my friend..
coz wif it i can see my weakness n cover it back..
now i can think wisely without take any stupid action anymore..
my mind is more wide n not blame people wif no reason..
thx 4 those people that bring problem 2 me...
thx 4 ur kindness to help me to change..
nothing to be regret..
things happen now..
take it n go on wif ur life..
it may hurt u..
but if u still can hepiness there..
go for it..
dont deny it or blame on it..
bcoz sometimes u cant c the benefit until u face it....
