Tuesday, October 26, 2010

dont judge people with it cover,,

dont judge people with it cover,,
many time we have heard this statement rite,but everytime we evaluate people, we will ignore that statement.. only few of us will use that statement in daliy life.. same goes to me,,i always say that dont give total evaluation only u know them in few days or week. yes, i apply that prinsip in my life, but some case i forget to know the real meaning of that. if we see surface from their character, we easy to judge wheather they gud or bad person. in what contect or aspect we judge that is depend on urself. people can play many character and sometimes can split their character in second. we get confuse their real personality in just one day we meet them. but when we explore their life deeply, one by one truth will apear and shown. that time all question will answer naturally. if we meet someone who have bad tempered, egoistic, and social we easy to judge that are bad person without knowing inside of them. if we take a certain period time, sometimes we find positive of them. sometime they are more kind rather than us in other aspect. we will shy if we find out the goodness of them. sometime they have their own reason why their be like that. dont think good person are always good and vise verse. if we find one of their bad characteristic, dont easily judge or give negative perspection to them. we dont have rite to give any punishment or judgement to others. if we see the bad thing, first, see in urself, try to avoid from do it and apply the good things from what u see. better check urself rather than busy to judge people. we only see the negative of people but never see the negative of theirself. dont easily accept people totally from first perception. because sometimes first perception is just a lie statement. if we easily accept them with ur first perception u will leave them if u find beside of them. know them first, explore their life. dont accept positive side of them but we must accept negative of them too.

Friday, October 15, 2010

study week!! im getting weak!

hye,,how ur day? feel good? great,, if not,,just relax and keep smile in ur face k,,
hmmm..study week come again,,feel tyme r running too face hah! but, wat 2 do,,tyme is keep running rite..its ok,,many things happen in my life and maybe goes same to u.. UNEXPECTED! that d best words that can describe my feeling! i even donno what 2 do,,just follow d songs! lalala,,hehe,, am i hepi now? with what i got in my life? it give me hepiness that i want,, mybe yes and myb no!
back 2 our topic! my final is stat 25hb october! hahahaha,, so, i want get enough rest n sleep before i struggle in my paper,,as like last sem i want do d best 4 my final,,i want do my best in final! that my promise 2 my parent,,i try keep believe in my heart that my faith is in here! i need to focus and works more harder! ALLAH plz help n guide me,,

Thursday, August 5, 2010

vacation

MY JOURNEY~



pix nie dalam kite dgn danial,,otw ke jaybee~
pas2 da sampai hotel~nie kt lobby hotel~~



hahaha~
danial n mak pn nk bgmbo gak~
bole aje,,
ha! nie kitorg da smpai otel~
here we come~take a photo~


morning world!!!
in here at level 15!!
hahaha!!
great view!!



after that jenjalan r kt otel nie!
pix kt tepi tingkt nie kt level 13!
2nd pix bhadapan dgn gim! (nk masuk tp xd ksut sukn lax)




ha,cun x pmandangan dy!
sblh tu my lovely parent!
swimming pool terbek!


hahaha~
finally danial bole mandy~
dr mula2 smpai xsaba nk swimming~
now! lihat la muka ku yg bhgia nie!
huhu,,



sementara tngu dak kecik nie mandy,,ak pe ag~
pose kt ats nie larr~
2nd pix uw kt sblh kolam~
(wlpn xpat mandy)


hmmmm,,
tyme 2 paly table tennis wif my abah
mula2 men b2,tp mak n adik pn nk men gak,,
xpe2 ramaikn jemaah~
best2,,

~bleeding~



i feel so hurt rite now,,
i dont noe y i cry so badly,,
am i too cruel??
im d one who always hurt people,,
n im deserve 2 face all diz pain alone???!!??

Friday, July 30, 2010

holiday~




title: trip to jb
member group: abah,,mak,,adik n me!!(0f coz)
tyme: 30-31hb july 2010,,

welcOme 2 jOhor bAHru~
that's d suit word 4 me ha,,
after almost one month i not back home,,
finally i did it!
BUT!!!!
im not at home now,,
(jeng2)
im at GRAND PARAGON HOTEL AT jb,,
hahaha,,
never plan i finish my weekend at jb,,
hmmm,,
i can here with my famili lorhh,,
my dad hav famili day here (but i not go there..heheee)
yesterday i not still at all,,until 6.30am finally i get some sleep
at 8.30 my mum ask me to get shower n go 4 breakfast at lobby hotel,,
wah2,,4 d very first tyme i go with,,,,,,,,MYSELF!
OMG! what should i do,,4 not wasting d opportunity i bravely go by myself,,
hehe,,till then,,i with full confident go to lobby 2 take a brekfast,,
haha guess what?? i spend one hour to finish up my bfst,,
i almost try all variety food there,,
nyum2,,i give 3star la,,
being at 15 level up here i good enough 4 me to see jb from here,,i even can see singapore and other place,,
so, i hav one more nite here and i wanna fill my day with full memory here,,

*p/s : i put some pix 4 memory (that room we stay 4 2 nite)

view from,,,





peaceful,,silent and calm,,
that what i feel now,,
when everyone sleep at d bed n im d one who sitting in d chain and start to wrote somethng,,
now im at d highest place in d town (i guess) while im keeping see surrounding with full of interst,,
i wanna peace that i miss damn much,,when i spend my tyme with myself,,talk to myself,,
did i ok?did i being hurt?did i hepi with my lyfe now,,
n im keeping asking myself,,who am i??
i noe i make a lot of mistake,,make them hurt,cry,sad n moody,,
im sorry 4 all those that,,
what im supppose to do?
im just keep silent n go without any xplanation,,

im i a bad person?
should i take care of them?loving them?hunt their love?
am i loser when i let them go from my lyfe,,
did i make it become more n more complicated??
i want make people hepi,,comfort with me,,share hepiness n sadness with me,,
but sometimes i cant simply do that,,

and im still here,,see environment from up here,,
im smile coz see the creation of ALLAH that full of perfection (im glad 2 be here)
ALLAH give me guideline and bless 2 me,,

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

new,,

im change..
hurmmm,,no la..im still myself,,haha..nothing change..new sem ha? new roommate..hurmmm..(too much hmmm rite)..i feel little shock when i get asgmnt too fast 4 diz sem..yea,,i noe now im in part 4..but it ok..everything is gud..(so far)..i realize that my life is surrounding by people who are become leader..but sadly im not apart from that.. mybe Allah didn't give me d opportunity 2 take that responsibility,, its okey.. i take that as chance 2 me 2 learn i from them,,i like 2 noe their job,,n i think myb i cant lead that as much as they give,,so,,nothing to be regret rite,,juz afraid try it again,,myb i should see n learn from them first,,

Thursday, July 8, 2010

selalu begitu~

Selalu Begitu

Hijau Daun

Selalu begitu kamu
Tak pernah menyenangkan hatiku
Selalu membuat aku marah
Memaksa aku menjauh

**
Selalu begitu kamu
Merasa paling benar sendiri
Tak mau mendengarkan kata ku
Memaksa aku menjauh

Chorus :
Dan aku menyerah
Tak kuat ku tahan
Ku tak mau lagi kau ada disini
Inilah saatnya kusudahi saja
Ku tak punya lagi sisa kesabaran

Reff :
Berkali-kali ku bilang
Sabarku pasti ada batasnya
Berkali-kali ku bilang
Aku hanya lelaki biasa

Friday, May 14, 2010

after~~

hye...jap2..bg salam lu..assalamualaikum..hehe..
hurmmm..bersua kembali di laman ku ini...sgala kesulitan ditempuhi satu persatu..ak kian redha dgn ketentuan Ilahi..cuba utk mcari dan mengenal salah dan silap ak..tiap kali ku mgambil langkah sndiri,ak kn jatuh dan tersungkur..tp ku bangkit semula bsama secebit harapan..walau hatiku kecewa hampa,namun masih ad yg sudi mghulur bantuan kpdku..ak amat bersykur kerana xdbiarkan keseorangan..namun ku jua kerap kali mlakukan kesilapan..ku kerap mmberontak n myalahkan takdir jika ku xdapat apa yg diingini..
kini ku kampng halamanku..disini ku ingin mbina semula kekuatan n keyakinn dikala ku leka dibuai mimpi indah..ku ingin muhasabah diri kerna ku tahu tlalu byk salah n silap yg ku lakukan..
disini ku ingin myusun jari mmohon maaf sekiranyer ad tkasar bhsa,tguris hati,xpeduli,ttinggi suara n dll...ak arap agr diri ni dimaafkan..kerna diri ini terlalu kerdil utk mjaga hati semua org..

kepada kwn2 ku..maafkn salah ku kerna terlalu mgabaikn kalian..kerap kali menduakn kalian..xmjaga ati kalian n jarang bersama kalian..maafkan aku..
kepada akk2 ku..maafkan andai diri ini xdapat mbhgiakan kamu..xdpt mceriakn idup kamu..selalu myakiti hati kamu n xmjaga kamu..
kepada diri ku sendiri...
maafkan lah hatiku yg terlalu mgikut emosi..mgabaikn..myakiti..n mbiarkan diri terseksa begini..
kepada siapa yg mbenci diri ini..
maafkan lah kedaifan diriku yg mbiarkan hatimu mbenci diriku..xpernah terniat myakiti hatimu..jika hatimu xingin memaafkan,jgnlah mbenci,mghina diriku yg kerdil ini..

Saturday, May 1, 2010

hye...
da bkurun ak xmnaip kt cni...
trase rindu lak..
ni tgh tyme final..ak ad lagi 2 paper..n 2 2 paper nie agr susah bg aku..
ak try wt yg tbaik kali nie..
smlm ak dpt tau interview ak gagl lagi..again n again buat kali yg ke2..
ak agk hampe tp ak diam kan jew..ak xtau nk ngadu kt sape..sbb slm ak meluahkn perasaan,diorg da suh ak btenang..ak takot nk hadapi ari mdtg..pnt jd org kuat,pd hakikat nyer ak nie lemah agt..
ak nk org pk pe ak wt nie betol..ak nk ad pendirian..
bia org pandang serong kt ak ke pe ke..
yg pnting ak yakin dgn ape ak wt..mybe nie bkn rezeki ak n aku xdtakdirkn utk itu..
ak pasrah..ak amat2 bgantung pa DIA utk bg kkuatan kt aku..
ak xnk nangis ag..cukup la..ak n k jd kuat..ak tgh stdy sorg2..ak jd blurrr...tp bila ingt parent,aku terus fokus on stdy..ak xmemerlukan kehidupn yg trlalu njoy sbb tu bkn jiwa ak..
nk hepi bole tp ad batasnyer...
sbb kdg2 ak perlukn mse utk diri sendiri...

Thursday, March 25, 2010

blurrrrr

i have to face it...
here...where im standing??
can i stand by my own??
hmmmm..
im afraid..
im sori sis..
org xreti dlm hal2 nie..
jg ati org..hmmmm...
nth la..
org akn myesal bila org uw da pegi..
tp tyme uw smuanyer da brakhir..
sbb uw stiap hbgn mst ending camni..
org xtau nk ckp pe ag..
org da ilang akak..
org mmg xreti jg kn...
org aw..
hmmmm..
berikn kn ak ptunjuk mu..
spya ak dpt mnilai ssuatu dgn btl...
im speachless..
my test??
is worst!!
my asgmnt??
errrrr~
my life??
miserable...

Thursday, March 18, 2010

aku & penyakit

hye...
perlu ke ak g medical check up again??
nth la..
mmber ak pakse g wt follow up dgn doc len..
tkt hal nie jd ag terok..
sbb mmber dy pn same kes dgn ak..
headache...doc ckp xd pape,juz xcukp rhat la..pe la..
upenyer bila g cek kt tmpt len,dy sbnrnyer ad migrain!
huh! xke bhya uw..
lately ak ase cpt letih...
lau tito uw,mst xtjaga..
bdn ak pn cam sengal2 je...
tp yg paling ak xtahan bila akit pale...
mmg xpat wt keje len..
n psl mkn..kna itot tyme..lau lmbt ckt je..mst perot msok angin..
pedih jew...skrg pn da xleh mkn pedas2...
tension!!!!
myb ak byk agt pk kowt...
ak xnk wt diorg riso..nk2 parent ak...
xnk r mnambahkn beban...
hope akit nie cepat baik...sbb xlarat nk tahan akit..
nk stdy pn ssh...xdpt focus...
aku ni cam problematic gurl kn..
de je probs nyer....
xabis2 dgn masalah...
mslh yg ak cari sendiri!!
hahahaahahahah...
sampai bila ak leh idup dgn tenang??
tgn yg bterusan mgigil..
pale yg sntiase akit..
pwot yg slalu wt hal..(gastrik)
jantung yg bdegup pantas..
aha!
ak pn xtau sampai bila...
myb ni dugaan utk ak..
tp ak btl2 nk kn jwpn kpd sume nie..
ak nk agt tau punca akit ak..
sbb ak ase cam de somthing wrong je..
sume ubat da telan..but remind d same...
hurmmmmm...

Monday, March 15, 2010

aku....

..............silent...............
juz keep silent...
coz people around me r stat 2 hate me...
...........in silent..............
my fault???
yup2..
tepat sekali...
dulu dy..skrg kamu...nex who??
wut im gonna do??
keep silent again??
no...not 4 this tyme...
i want u'll..
plz..let me fix myself...
ak tau mse xbyk ag..
ak btl2 jd xbtl..
dgn ksihtn xtjaga..
ak nk diorg chat..
bia r ak akit sorg...
sbb tu kdg2 ak nk duk bilik sorg..
xmo diorg aw ak akit..
tp tu r..bnda da jd...ak pn cam diam kn je..
nk aw...aku tkt wt kptsn..sbb ak mmg xpandai wt kptsn..
ak jenis yg byk pk..bila somtng happen ak akn pk dr a-z..
wlpn bnd uw xjd ag..
ak cpt emo,snsitf..
nape ak trus diam kan sume nie..
leh tunaikn pmintaan sy??
sy nk tgk org yg sy syg...
senyum...hepi....n bhgia...
along...angah....alang....
4 d first tyme in my life i got 3 sis...
sy kenalkn korg kt famili sy..
first tyme!!
org ciap ckp kt famili yg sy btl2 syg korg..
n i noe my mum noe n undstnd it...
tp sy hampir2....akan....
ditinggalkn.....
tlg sy...
sy xnk sume nie blaku..

Monday, March 1, 2010

aku ase....

org selalu pk pe diorg pk btl...kdg2 lngsg xpk or ase pe org uw alami...kdg2 ak bengang agk..ak da cuba buat yg tbaik utk jaga ati sume org...tp tu r..im just human being yg lemah lagi hina ini..xmampu nk wat sume pihak hepi...dari dulu ag..ak saba..saba n saba...juz diam,dgr n follow..ak bkn PATUNG yg xd perasaan..ak diam,sbb ak hormat..ak dgr sbb nk dgr pnjelasn..lau ak ckp gk bila org tgh ckp,sape yg dgr t..setan r...ak follow sbb ak nk diorg hepi dgn kputusn yg dbuat..ak bkn marah..ak cuma tkilan...stiap kali..stiap phubgn..mst ending camnie..kali ini ak nak agt diorg2 uw tau yg ak syg agt kt diorg..wey,sape je yg xhepi bila ase dhargai,dsygi..org yg ttiba muncul,care bout u..tp bila org yg kita mmg sayang mula bri phatian kt ko,xkn ko nk biakn je dy cam2..sbb ak pnh ase dbiakn..hurmmmmm...ntah la...ak mls nk kapel..pnt je nk feeling2 nieh!sbb uw ak prefer syg org cam pngkt akk..sbb ak dgn akk ak xrapat agt..lg2 dy da kawin..ag la..ak tau kdg2 ak blaku xadil... tp bila ak dgn dy,dlm mase yg same dpt tau yg lain tluka..ingt ak akn hepi..bhgia agt la cam2...msg2 pk diorg btl..im just d one yg dgr..make my own conclusion..n keep silent...who am i to change their mindset...i would like to say..once i say i love u,4eve im love u..no matter u leave me,or keep silent..i will always remind u..n never throw u away from my life..bila org yg kita syg,benci agt2 kt kita pe kita ase???ak ttba blank!!didi she pretend again??i dont noe...all my way,ak ase ak nk nngis puas2..tp airmata xkua..tp ati ak bleeding...ak cuba utk senyum..make them hepi..tp sumenyer da brubah..sbb dlm ati diorg ad ase yg kureng senang thdp ak..ak an jahat,tamak,pmbohong...ckp je r korang salah kn ak dlm hal nie..bia la ak tanggung...pandai wt,pandai tanggung r kn..bgs ayat uw..xpe la..bia ku pendam je..

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

tired..

im tired now..
really tired..
seem all my energy is already lost..
i lost in darkness nyte..
i cry 4 no reason..
im thinking wif no aim..
im walk wif no direction..
talk without voice..
wanna smile but my heart bleeding..
wanna laugh but everything is cool..
what wrong wif me??
where am i??
i lost in my own world that i create by myself..

Sunday, February 7, 2010

hye..im still standing here..
lately my life is full of problem..
problem that is called 'test of life'..
hmmmm...
after one problem come and been solve,another take part to been tested..
i feel so down and my mood is not too good..i feel so moody n hard to smile..like always..
all this problem is really tested me..
test my heart to be more stronger than yesterday..
i noe i can face it..coz i now i have people that really care of me..
n always be beside me to support n face it wif me..
first..
person that i loved wanna let me go..yea,i noe..
im made a problem and i must to accept all possibility..
its all my mistakes..but finally..its ending wif good result..
that 4 all my sis..
second..
i been test by noe that im hurting person that i love every second in their life..i feel so lost n
blurr..i dont noe what to do..i love them damn much..
i cant choose one of them..
yea..im STUPID!!
i make it happen..sorry 4 all my mistake..
sorry 4 every tear that fall..
sorry 4 every heartbeat that been crash by me..
sorry from bottom of my heart..
third..
i wanna be someone in here..
not no body..but i lose it again n again..i wanna get busy with my life..but...
hurmmm..feel empty inside..
fouth..
what u feel when u noe that d person that always be there 4 u..hate u in silence..
person that always shared tear n laugh..that u trust 2 tell secret..
hurmmm..
my mind stop thinking..i dont noe what going on..i feel my heart bleeding again..
my heart cry again..i feel so empty..
why me???i noe u feel angry that tyme..but y??
i noe my fault..but at least im fulfill ur need rite..but that not my point..i really love them,friend..when im start something,i will finish it..

after all this problem appear in my life..
i learn something..
that make me gain something..
first..
i learn to appreciate people that always be there 4 me..learn not too judge people without noe them first..
second..
we cannot make everyone hepi..but at least do something that can make them smile..although u make them hurt,dont gain it more n more..
third..
learn to face d truth..learn to accept that u will not get all that u want...sometyme Allah wanna test u first,next He will give u somthng that much2 better n suit 4 u..u juz can plan n Allah will make it truth..
n cry will make u feel better..tear that come out will make ur heart more refresh n light..all ur problem will sweap away n u will fine..cry not represent ur weakness..but ur heart that ready to change..
fouth..
we cannot make people love u...n hate u..all we can do is be kind to everyone..we'r not God that can care all heart in this world..we juz human being that full of mistake..we cannot be like u want..everyone is differ from other..take that diff to make they feel special..
can i ask something?
who r u to make a judgement without noe d truth??
who r u to hate people when u let d mistake happen infront ur eyes 4 a long period??
u seem like noe all thing rite??
but u juz noe little of d story..but no matter what..
thx friend..im change step by step..now im not take a problem is enemy 4 me..
sometimes it can be my friend..
coz wif it i can see my weakness n cover it back..
now i can think wisely without take any stupid action anymore..
my mind is more wide n not blame people wif no reason..
thx 4 those people that bring problem 2 me...
thx 4 ur kindness to help me to change..
nothing to be regret..
things happen now..
take it n go on wif ur life..
it may hurt u..
but if u still can hepiness there..
go for it..
dont deny it or blame on it..
bcoz sometimes u cant c the benefit until u face it....

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

for d first tyme...

hye..
this is my first trial to make a blog in this proper place..
b4 this i juz create it in ms..
hurmmmm....
my life is simple but now become more n more complicated...
i try to do all my best to love,care person that i love..
but we juz human being rite..
we full of weakness..
n i admit that..
hard to fulfill their need,but in same tyme i like to make it true..
this is me..
i prefer to taking care more about others rather than myself..
others mean person that i really love..
once i love someone,4 whole my life,i will love it,as long they love me too....
i will wrote on this place often..
if needed...
c u soon...
till then..
love ...